How can black people create a mental space of peace with growing chaos all around them?
Especially if we are constantly being overwhelmed with fetishized videos, circulating news stories, and social media hashtags of another black person being killed.
Watching another black man being pinned down at his neck, pleading for his life— watching him die.
George Floyd is one of the MANY BLACK MEN and WOMEN that this continues to happen to. George Floyd is a part of me; he’s my family; he’s my friend.
This is yet another cultural tragedy that has once again left me asking how and where does “peace and calm” have the ability to exist in the minds of my Black people when we’re treated like our lives are not valued. Disposable. Every. Single. Day.
People who refuse to understand what I’m saying will argue that it’s about where my level of faith is. They’ll highlight why “we as a people” need to stick together FIRST, in order to be respected by other races; they’ll say that I’m focusing on the negative or being all talk but not a part of an active resolution , and I’m not being prayerful enough, and I’m “giving the oppressor the power”.
But honestly, black people are staring cultural genocide in the face on what seems like daily.
We’re experiencing modern day lynchings, and dodging the daily bullet in the game of “kill-a-n*gger”, and we’re uncomfortable. Restless. Tired. Angry. Uneasy. Rightfully so.
I’m a black woman. I’m an aunt to black women and men. A cousin to black women and men. A sister to black women and men. A friend to black women and men.
I often imagine if I were in the families of the victims —- I practice how I’d respond to the crisis and speak on behalf of my family — mostly preparing for the war between the family and the media, as they attempt to taint an innocent, helpless, DEAD black man’s image and reputation to help justify the hate crime committed against them.
It’s sickening and sad because THIS is the current reality that black families seem to have to stay ready for, just in case —-defending their helpless, innocent loved ones who were killed, ON VIDEO. Staying prepped for crisis communication with little to no time to mourn— staying geared up to fight.
Yet and still, we (Black people) go out in the world to live, work, and contribute and build a country that has no regard for us, and we still function as if we’re not a target.
Only resilient people can do what we do.
This fight we’ve been in… we will win.